Ruth's_journal

                        DILEMMA I fell in love with Eric just few months after I gained admission into the university. Eric was tall and dark skinned, he was in his third year in the university. His eyes sparks in darkness, and he had a thick partly full hair, his look was one major reason why I said yes to him when he asked me out. We started dating with no intention of having sex, we loved each other so much that almost every student in school knew we were dating.  One day I went to visit Eric at his apartment. His room was well decorated, furnished and his mattress was very big. We spoke and had fun together, then somehow out of the blues we made love to each other. He was my first, and it felt so intimate and rapturous. We didn't use any protection and I wasnt on any pill, we just had sex and that was it. After a month I missed my period. I thought it was something I could deal with until I missed my period...

If you find beauty, "Tell her she's captivating, And her nature is like the stars Shinning up above" "Tell her she's the key to my world If this world is meaningless, Then she makes a lot of meaning to my empty heart." "Her words can be tricking a times But I've gone to learn from men who knows Better than just praising her ." I don't flatter But I take my time to filter my words For I dare not hurt her by my utterance "Tell her, She's the reason I  keep my feet meters away Because I fear my present may make her uncomfortable. See,I'm the lover boy  everyone talks about in the neighborhood. With my hood on I mind my business pretending not to hear the drum beat But deep down my legs are making moves and my body constantly rolling like the  Hip hop dancers I'm not an actor, but I always create a  scene at the junction down the street when ever I spin. No one thinks I can love or be loved They think I'm like t...

POETRY HOUSE( pieces ) There are pieces of me hanging on the tree Pieces of me flying out of the window There are pieces of me I lost long time ago And some, I don't even need back There is a song deep in my heart Beating loud from the mountain top Their lies after the ocean an island of hope I was made to be great And I must  create. My existence is mine to tell I mean  I can hold my peace and elope the scene I can be  what makes lyrics sweet Me and you can beat the best And after the best,we can conquer the rest In time of testing, I will quench my thirst Or maybe do my best to make up for the stress I've got pieces pilling up, I'm ready to invest in this vent . I'm a seed to my generation, So I must stay strong in this tribulation. For In this contradiction, I've found justification My story is mine to tell  I am an eye witness I speak of all that I've witness How my meekness became my weakness And my fears , became my tears I will never forget my pain,B'...

The thought of you makes me restless Like the waves I find rest at your presence. A flower I wish to behold. If only I can see far,I wish to see you. Your absence creates a void within me A crack that sinks deep. I may be wrong,maybe Right. I dash to the wall,for your silent peels my flesh. I struggle to pick the piece you left .  I can mud a heap of love with our memories, We could build a tower together, We could even dive through the ocean. With you, ulgly places become beautiful And if it's still ugly then we make it beautiful. I wish you were never hard to reach, I could climb the hills to reach you, To behold you in my arms. But what are we now? Your words are flying away Your smiles flows away Your face is fading off my mind. "I wonder if WE still exist" You fill the spaces in my heart, Until you became scarce. You made my world empty. I thirst for you For your smile,your laughter. I hate to see you cry, A chance to wipe those tears off your check,is al...

My world is spinning And if I ever fall,I may break my spine See, I have a best friend called Anger She's the jealous type, So I keep you away to please her. She's the better half I ever got The only love I've got.  you ever want to see her?  provoke me with words that hurt like fire, And you will see her rotten fierce face. She hate patience, reason I attack fiercely My control key is broken, or maybe completely destroyed. Don't blame me when I lift my hands to hit your cheek "She told me not to ever take shits from any one" I love her, she  fed me with grapes,and now I act cruel I'm an angel in a black gown A sheep covered with black hair I've got a light skin that spark, And my smile can heal a soul, But within my veins flow's blood that taste bitter than sorrow itself. My words can kill if I ever get to release them from the hole behind my teeth And if we ever fight? I may not ignore the knife. What became of me seconds after murder...

Barren land,  Everything seems dry, even the air that i breathe. Would have killed myself at the mere thought of this years back, But today my fingers will have to write a tribute to you on this trip you've embarked on. You left without a goodbye, Or maybe a goodbye wouldn't have helped my pain. The dreams we both had are all gone. How can I live on my own? How can I love again? The stars have lost their shine. The sun has gone dim. My life's shattered. My heart now knows the bitter taste of sadness. I never expected you would let go of me. I wish I can kill death. I wish I can stab bitterness. I wish I can drown pain, Never to let it float. But you are gone, and I'm alone. Alone to face this world  A world that seems so crushed. Like butterfly you flew away, Leaving your fragnace over me I wish I can have one more dance with you, One more dinner with you, Just One more chat with you, Because all this "more" will add up to forever if you hadn't...

To the God who made me. I'm stuck to the ground, And my palms glued together. I can't wrestle with you, Not even with the hand that made me. I surrender to you, So please don't consume me with your fire Like lighting your eye strikes through the face of the earth. I shrink at the sound of your voice. You are there in the stars,the moon,and the sun reflect your greatness. How can I eat and lit? When my world crumbles right before me. Why you choose me?I can't tell. Why you love me? I can't comprehend. In this world,sometimes I pay to be loved, Even to be heard. But you hear the whisper of my heart crying for relieve. I get rejected most times, But you won my heart,and accepted my flaws. You don't love like people do. With you, Something was made out of a life that couldn't fit into a sheet.  like a foil paper, you wrapped me in your grace. I was frustrated, disappointed, and afflicted. But you captured my life and added a spice to it. So I'm i...