Ruth's_journal

I stand at the edge of life, With my heart bleeding out regrets. Years wasted panting on lies, Lies told to deceive My feelings. Your voice,music to my ear Your smile,tingles my heart. The thought of you cream my heart, Washing away the wax in my soul. Like an eagle i elevate with your love. Today I'm lost in the desert of deception. Choosing to let you go,a regret not to forget. A beauty,I choose to neglect. Your pleads I ignored, Like a clock you tick out of sight. I should have stood by you, Holding you tight to my heart. I should have walked with you through the accusations, I should have fought for you, Brushing those tears off your cheek. But I lost in this puzzle, I Scrabble away the love we both shared. You are perfection, the queen of beauty I treaded you to the dust, To be humiliated.  My ear I wish was open to your plea. Seeing you laugh at his jokes, Was a reminder I can't have you back. I love you so much until I lost you. I lost you, never to have you ...

The Chains entangled around my wrist, Are the only  sounds bold enough to tell my story,  Living in a doomed world where edges are better off than the beginning. Leaves dried up, Mountains wearing away. The night has become dark, even darker than coal. We were told to learn. How can we, when hunger is our closest companion? Begging for a drop of water to wet a patched throat crying for survival. Eating from the trash to avoid been eaten by vultures. Our girls are been taken for their innocence by predators who offer a penny for their hymen. Our banks mourn for emptiness. Those we planted our hopes on, Served us a dish of betrayal... Right in front of me,  I watch my world  And like glass it crushed right before me. If you must survive, you have to work. Work through the day and harder at night. Ammunition became what we fed from... The carcass of many we slept on, Our houses were demolished. Our anger solidified, and out of our belly came groaning. Enough...